how bout getting off these antibiotics
how bout stopping eating when I'm full 
up
how bout them transparent dangling carrots
how bout that ever elusive 
kudo 

thank you indiathank you terror
thank you 
disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank 
you silence 

how bout me not blaming you for everything
how bout me 
enjoying the moment for once
how bout how good it feels to finally forgive 
you
how bout grieving it all one at a time 

* thank you india
thank 
you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you 
consequence
thank you thank you silence 

the moment I let go of it was 
the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of 
it
was the moment I touched down 

how bout no longer being 
masochistic
how bout remembering your divinity
how bout unabashedly 
bawling your eyes out
how bout not equating death with stopping 


[Repeat *]